You asked if Im happy with what's happening with me right now, I told you I am.
You said you're not expecting me to do those things, and I closed my eyes.
I do not want to argue with you anymore.
You said you're hurt, and I look at you,hoping you could see how frustrated I am too. But all I can see is hatred and anger beginning to arise again, so I told you I don't really want to talk about it.
I told you to stop worrying about me, and you're asking me to come back.
I said I'm fine and there's nothing to worry about. Really.I've been telling you that I can take care of myself.That's the first thing I learned before I even start learning to read, remember?
You asked when I am planning to tie the knot,I told you I have no plan.
You frowned and I could tell by the way you look at me that you were angry.
And you asked me for the nth time what's is wrong with me, I told you that's just the way I want it to be.
I told you that's how I see the brighter future and that I'm happy and that I'm satisfied and that there's nothing to worry about.
You looked at me from head to foot. I stood firm. I wanted to show you that I did not regret that I told you those things.
You asked, "What do you want,then?" I replied, "Nothing. Just leave it all to me."
You were silent for a couple of minutes. "I did not want you to be like that".
I replied, "I was influenced by the things around me, but I'm doing good now,I'm taking it all easy, don't worry."
You closed your eyes, and for a moment I thought you were going to cry. But you were stronger than I ever knew.You sighed, "Ok, I understand".
I was disappointed, I though you would say, "Im sorry". But I've told you that I'm fine now, honestly I am.I just don't know how to have normal principles...like the perceptions of the people around me. I'm no longer broken, but I am the bended tree in the backyard. Healthy, productive, beautiful... but impossible to stand straight again.
