OMG!

everything happens according to plan. just last year, i was dreaming of going back to school and now this dream is becoming real. i was in hurry. i collected my papers as fast as i could, submitted them to who had the authority to approve my application, took the examination, and bingo! after that seemingly endless hardship, i was informed that i can now enrol for the next semester. the only phrase i muttered was”oh my god!”.

and then i finally take a long break… let the time run and sat down for a very long moment. am i sure? yes, of course. this is what i want! am i just being pressured by the things that i can see in the real world right now? well, maybe. but isn’t that important? being affected by the worst elements on earth? i should make a difference. am i ready to face this new challenge? now, enough. i am being paranoid again. these thoughts won’t help me reach my goals.

there are so many unwelcome thoughts on my mind right now. but i am certain of two things. I am excited. I am nervous. I don’t know what will happen next but since i am already here, i guess i have no other choice but to pursue it. after all, this is what i want. this is what i’ve been planning for so long. this is the opportunity that i’ve been waiting for.

yeah maybe, im just beng OA. forgive me, i am very nervous and i’m not even sure what will be the next scenes. all i know is, I am afraid but i cannot show it to everyone because they know that i’ve been talking about this thing eversince i came out from that “training field” and entered in this “real world”. God bless me. and please…. wish me luck.