Damn. I was supposed to be writing about 'value proposition and differentiation' for my client but I felt an urge to write about something that has been bothering me lately. Well, it was actually Claudine's fault. I was researching about fundamentals of marketing for the completion of an order that has been stocked on my account for three days already; however, I suddenly thought of visiting my blogger account. And so I finally saw the blog post that Ara and Claude were talking about last night. For the nth time this week, I heard and read the word “marriage”. No, this is not an answer to Claude's post (she's getting famous on this blog entry), it is actually a written deep realization of what has been happening these past few days.
This chaos started when my unpredictable significant other posted a very controversial phrase on his Facebook account. It was an indirect (not proposal) statement about a very serious matter: marriage. As you could imagine, our friends commented on that post... happy, supporting, showing approval (as if they're the ones who would say yes, except for Claude (again) who directly said yes (a joke, of course). No, I am not going to elaborate more on that post, it has actually nothing to do with what is happening right now.
It became the talk of the town. we're not famous, of that I am certain, but any person who talks about something rare would definitely gain attention from the mainstream... especially when it has something to do with marriage. For the next five days, everyone was saying how happy they are for us. Okay, enough for that, Jake and I did not even talk too much about that. I asked him, yes. But what answer would you expect from someone who is either lazy to talk or just too reserved to say too much words about a specific subject?
I said, “Are you putting too much pressure on me or this is just your new idea of a joke?”.
He answered, “I'm serious”.
Okay.
The conversation ended there. We did not talk much about it although we sometimes look at the possibility of us getting married soon. The conversation is always unclosed. So I therefore conclude that we just talk about it because there are so many factors that affect us to do so.
Somehow, I am guilty.... of showing too much doubt and hesitation to my friends, talking about this topic often in front of them, and discussing about the reasons why Jake and I should and should not entertain the idea of getting married at a very young age (we're both twenty two years old, but we are already in this relationship for four years now). Apparently, I appreciate the support that my friends gave me when they saw the hint that my significant other is already thinking about this 'serious matter'. My friends, just like me, are also in stable and very serious relationship with their partners (who eventually became friends of ours) which add impact on our openness to the topic. Starting then, we've been talking about our dream weddings and laughing on each other's corny concepts of the ceremony.
Just last night, Jake and I had once again talked about this 'serious matter'. Yes, it's becoming a routine... and just like the other talks, we left it unclosed. We're not getting any younger, yes, but I know with what we are thinking about right now, we still have so many things to learn in order for us to grow. I realized that the fact that our families support our relationship gives us courage to decide on a more serious matter. At least we're certain of one thing, our parents would approve whatever decision we are going to make in the future. However, we both feel that that fact is not enough to make us brave to face the consequence of any plan that we will execute. I am fully aware of the things/problems/ reasons behind that indirect proposal.
I have a lot of plans in the future and I have never forgotten any of those... and I have not yet changed my principles in life. I will reach every little goal I set no matter what happen tomorrow. Just like other couples, we have a lot of plans, too. Countless dreams. I just hope everything will come true.
The bell starts to ring for us... maybe. But honestly, I don't think too much about it now. I know eventually, we will reach that time...when we don't need to let the opportunity pass and strive to make ourselves strong to stand for new responsibilities. Just let the bell ring, it may probably ring hard once the right time comes.
There will be no marriage between Jake and I yet. We're planning yes. And we're excited. But not yet. Trust me.
